On the bright side: I am in the middle of a really good book. I got to watch a huge school of tadpoles swim around in the river on my break. The day was sunny and mildly cool. I got to observe/teach a class of 10(ish) year old girls during a Planned Parenthood presentation, and it was fun. I get to work the Farmer's market again this weekend. Pat plays at the Terrace this Saturday. My apartment is getting unpacked. My friends are wonderful people.
Plenty to smile about.
As far as work goes, I am still working on resolving what I want to do/should be doing. I got a little excited the other week when someone mentioned that there was a possibility of being trained to shoot copystand photos. (Something I've done a bit of, but not with a medium format camera.) Was I interested? (Hell yes!) The upper-ups where still deciding about it, though. Well, time passes and no more word on it, but someone else is doing the copy work, so I am guess that it is a no-go. Disappointing, yes, but I carry on.
What I need to do are evaluate my strengths and weaknesses, my passions and my tediums. My big weaknesses are:
*Talk waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much at times. Other times, not a damn word. I need to practice knowing when to speak up and when to shut up.
*Tendancy to be blunt. Diplomacy, my girl, diplomacy.
*Can get irritable or flustered with people under stress. Relax. Breathe. Calm down.
My strengths:
*Keen eye for patterns, organization and detail.I can see how things do or should flow together,I can pick out connections, and I notice things that are out of place.
*Big creativity, just waiting to be channeled. At the moment, it is going into things like decorating my apartment, and photoshopping stuff for my own pleasure.
*Intense work ethic. I like getting things done. I need to be doing something. Boredom is my nemesis.
What I find tedius:
*Deskwork/busywork/paperwork. I don't want to be a desk jockey and a paper pusher. I've never felt the appeal of the "office job".
*Repetitive manual labor. I hate loading up big rolls of paper. I do it, because it is part of my job description, but I'd rather not.
*Ass kissing. Still working on those diplomacy skills. I think I'd have a hard time, at the moment, sweet talking clients and dealing with their shit. Especially if the client is in the wrong...I'd have a hard time sucking it up and letting them be right.
My passions:
*Creating something new. Whether it is an object or an idea, I love the creative flow. I like projects, even little ones. I like completing something and being able to say "I did that."
*Working loosely with other people. Too independent to be joined at the hip, but I need the interaction on a peer to peer basis.
*Learning new information and skills. I am the perpetual student. I want to know things. Always.
Also, I don't do well in situations where I have so much supervision that I need permission to sneeze. I have a working brain, and I like being allowed to use it. On the flip side, I don't like telling others what to do. I like being in charge of projects and things, but not people. (One thing that was so hadr about teaching.)
Based on the above, it almost seems that I'd need to carve out my own niche. Maybe at my current company, or maybe somewhere new? I'll keep searching till I find what it is I need to be doing.
